Thursday, June 28, 2012

102 degrees, really?

Yes Ohio has reached 102 today (that's without the humidity).
Tried to go get ice cream off the ice cream truck today but sadly it was too hot for that.

Day 27 & 28

Once again combining 2 of them together.

What is your favorite part of your body and why?
Quite honestly I would say "my figure" at least my top half. Call me weird but I like being bigger on top. Well sometimes I do.

What is your love language?
Mine would be is Acts of Service. I love it when my husband does the dishes for me or vacuums or even cleans the bathroom. you can take the test here.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Day 25 & 26

I figured to get this caught back up I would go ahead and combine these 2.

If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
I honestly am at a loss on this one because I've never thought about it.

What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
I think the most popular notion that the world has the most wrong would be that the devil doesn't exist. I mean just think about it for one minute if the devil doesn't exist then people don't have to be held accountable for their actions. They can cause as much trouble as they want, sleep with whoever they want before marriage, take as many drugs as they want because the only person they have to answer to is themselves.After all if the devil doesn't exist then the God can't exist either.
 The devil really has people snowballed.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Day 24

Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.

Growing up my mom worked and my father stayed home. My mom was also very loving but had to work 12-14 hour days or longer just to support us. My father was very abusive both physically and mentally.
My family dynamic now is much much different.
My husband works 12 hour days so I can be a stay at home mom. He is not abusive at all.
Pretty much one of the things that are similar to my childhood is that growing up my brother and I would share all with my mom and my boys do that now. I am the person they come to when they need anything or just want someone to pray with them.
I would say my life is much better now.

Sgt. Udder Milkshake

Have you ever been to Build A Bear and watch the little kids get their animals stuffed and they take the heart and have to rub it all over them to make it have a strong heart/muscles/nice hair etc?
Well today I saw this except the kid was a 38 year old man.
Not only did this "kid" rub it all over himself including his legs so it could be a fast runner but he said in an Arnold Schwarzenegger voice I'm here to pump you up.
I couldn't stop laughing I thought I was going to pass out.
My husband said I was laughing so hard he thought he was going to have to revive me.
Maybe that's because the 38 year old "kid" that was doing all this was my husband and I couldn't stop laughing. If I could have taken video to put on here I would have.
So I present to you Sgt. Udder Milkshake.
I love my man and the way he is so willing to do crazy things in public to make me laugh.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Day 23

List your top  3 hobbies and why you love them.

1)Photography-Other than the fact that I love to capture the childhood of my boys I also love the beauty of nature.

2)Blogging-Not really sure why I love it as much as I do. I guess because I've always loved to write and this is one way to be able to do that and get my feelings out.

3)Reading-What's not to love? With reading I feel like I'm a character in the books and I get to go on an adventure.

Spread your wings & fly

This morning my oldest son asked if he could go into Walgreens for me and get a newspaper so I of course let him. He is 16 after all and I figure it's time to let him spread his wings and fly.
However as he was in there getting the paper it made me think. When exactly is the right time to let go?
All my boys' life I have protected them as much as a mamabear could but I have often wondered if I'm doing them a disservice.
I see so many kids in this neighborhood alone that are out running the streets all hours of the day by themselves as young as 5 & 6 and with all the sex offenders around here I have to wonder why.
Why do so many people let their kids so young do that? Why does the woman behind me who only gets her kids on the weekends let her kids leave 2 minutes after their dad drops them off and not come back until 9-9:30 at night sometimes later?
When does she spend time with them?
Isn't 6 too young to be "spreading your wings"?
Isn't 11 too young to be the mom to a 6 & 8 year old?
Am I way off base here?

I want to allow my boys the freedom to fly but not at the expense of their safety.
Is it so wrong to want to protect your children>
The way I see it God has given them to me on loan and one day I'll be held accountable for how I took care of them. I am not going to let something bad happen to them if I can help it.
So call my crazy but I like to think I am giving my children the freedom to spread their wings and fly but I'm also giving them roots by letting them know they can always count on me to keep them safe.

Saturday, June 23, 2012


Day 22 of 30-almost done

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

Since it's getting kind of hard to continue writing the 30 day challenge (now I know why it's called challenge. It's a challenge to continue when you think everyone is getting tired of reading about you and you are kind of tired of writing about yourself)
However with that being said I've never been a quitter and I don't plan on quitting now, plus it's only 8 more days.
So here goes:
5 years: Since I just celebrated 13 years married yesterday I guess I will be married for 18 years, a mom of a 16 year old and a 21 year old. Probably doing the same thing I'm doing now (sahm) and just loving my family with everything God has given me.

10 years: Other than being married I'm not sure. I am thinking once my youngest graduates high school I might go to school myself either to work in a daycare or photography. Or I may just volunteer my time somewhere.

15 years: I'll be almost 52 years old and I'm sure a grandma by then so I like to think I'll be able to be a grandma to my grandbabies and just spend my day doing whatever I feel like with no stress or pressure to have to rush off somewhere.

Friday, June 22, 2012

Day 21

If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

After the moment I just had with my teenage son I think I am now confirming if I had one superpower I would want to be able to read minds. Especially those of teenagers and men.
What do they think sometimes and do they think at all?

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Day 20

Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

Talking to my husband about this very subject last night and told him I am going to try to put down only positive ones so here goes.

1)I would go to church every Tuesday night and Sunday morning/evening with my mom. Some days we would go out to eat afterwards and we would go to McDonald's and she would get herself a happy meal so I could have 2 toys.

2)One day when I was 15 my mom and I went out to eat at Frisch's (for some reason) and as we were sitting there talking a very cute guy came out of the dishroom (prettiest hair you ever saw, just drop dead gorgeous) and my mom joking around to me said there's your husband.
Little did I know maybe it wasn't so much a joke because I am now married to that gorgeous man. Yep God was speaking the truth through my mom.

3) Going to the end of our street (it was a dead end) and I would pick blackberries off of the trees. My mom would give me buckets to bring them home in but they never made it home.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Day 19

If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

I am thinking I should write in Ohio where I live now since I am here and in a way refuse to move but  the truth is I'm really only here because I have a 10th grader and a 5th grader and I don't want to take them away from their friends.
Plus I don't want to leave my 2 nephews here or my brother and sister in law.
However if I had my choice and had no fears of moving I would pick Tennessee.
My sister and niece and nephew lives there and I think I would be closer to them if I could be near them and also I love everything I have ever seen about Tennessee. I love the shopping in Gatlinburg the most. :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Day 18

What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

I think the most difficult thing I've had to forgive was my husband cheating on me.
I have sat here for the last 15 minutes writing and erasing and rewriting our story and none of it sounds like it made sense so I'll just leave it at my husband cheating.
But we are ok now and will be celebrating 13 years together on Friday (June 22nd).

Overcoming guilt

Guilt is such a wasted emotion.
Today I took the boys to see The Lorax at the Danbarry theater (cheap movie theater) and I found out yesterday that during the summer if you go Monday-Friday before 12 then it's only $1 per person to get in instead of the normal $1.75 on Tuesday or the $3 the rest of the week.
So since it was just me and the 2 boys I got in for $3 and had enough will power to say no to popcorn/drinks and they were ok with that of course. Then after the movie my youngest asks if we can go to CiCi's Pizza and guess where we end up. Yep you guessed it.
So although I was proud of myself for having a fun cheap adventure with my babies I am beating myself up for going out to eat.
It's weird because I know that we have the money to afford it and that's not the problem so much as it just seems we eat out a lot or at least it seems we have ate out a lot this month and I am tired of it.
I need the strength to say no not so much to everyone else (even though that's a good idea) but no to myself.
Maybe I need to come up with a plan where everytime I say no I reward myself somehow. Maybe a $1 or $2 in my bank and after that adds up get my family something nice. Another board game perhaps or a trip to a museum or zoo?
Have you ever had to overcome the guilt of doing something you knew in your heart wasn't good to do all the time?

Monday, June 18, 2012

That's just nutty

Not a peanut I think I would want to try.

Day 17

What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

I think I would have to say swimming. Maybe not so much great at it as I wish I knew how to do it at all. I wish I didn't have the fear and I could make myself take lessons.


Just a video I thought I would post today. I think the message is a great one.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

30 day challenge: day 15 & 16

Thought I would be able to write yesterday but of course being the weekend it was another busy Saturday. Well anyway :)

If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
I think I would have to be a fly so I could be a fly on the wall. I think it would be interesting to just hang around my husband's work or other people's houses and see what they act like when you are not around. If they talk about you and such. Yep I think I thought this one out too much.

What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
1)My oldest son, Thomas
2)My youngest son, Isaiah
3)My determination not to quit and give up on my marriage.
4)I taught myself how to type and can now type without looking at the keyboard.
5)My determination and never say die attitude.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

He's getting a raise

Late last year David came home and said he (along with other guys at his work) were going to lose 5% of there paychecks (just to be able to keep their jobs) so although that meant a .50 decrease we tightened our belts once again and made it work.
Well in the process of all that we also found out that there would be a pay freeze which meant that he would not be getting his annual raise so of course that was disappointing but what can we do at least he had his job.
So I have been praying for awhile now that he would get a raise or something to help us out because although we are doing ok everyone wants to make more.
Well we found out within this last month that there was an assistant position at work that would come with a pay raise and I continued to pray and trust God.
Tonight he comes home from work and tells us that he got the position and although it won't start yet it will within the next 2-3 weeks and not only that but instead of just a little bit of a raise (a dime which has happened in the past) he will be making .75 MORE.
Not only is God blessing him with his 5% back but he is giving him another .25 just because he can.
It is true when we remain faithful to God he will remain faithful to us.

30 day challenge: day 13 & 14

I decided to go ahead and put these 2 together since it just didn't feel right to have them separated.
Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
1)Failure-I'm afraid of failing and I'm afraid if my kids fail it's a reflection on me and how I raised them. Not failing at a video game or anything like that but in school or their sports.
2)Perfectionist-I hate to say it but I'm a perfectionist. I THINK in my head if I fail at something people will stop loving me but looking around me sometimes now I think they already do know matter what the circumstances.
3)My kids-If anyone messes with them I go all mama bear on them.
4)Sugar-I have the world's biggest sweet tooth. I've been able to give up many bad things for me including pop,caffeine, and chocolate but I can't give up sugar.
5)Control-I'm a control freak. Ok my husband says I'm not but he says that only because he loves me. Truth is I like to be in control but I know why that is and I'm working on it everyday.

Describe 5 strengths you have.

1)My loyalty-Once I decide to be friends with you or love you I'm loyal to the end.
2)Spelling-I can spell just about anything you ask me to.
3)My kids-They make me a better person.
4)Hard worker-If I volunteer for something or say I will do something for you I will work to the best of my ability.
5)Honor-I'm trustworthy.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Grandpa's hands

Grandpa, some ninety plus years, sat feebly on the patio bench. He didn't move, just sat with his head down staring at his hands. When I sat down beside him he didn't acknowledge my presence and the longer I sat, I wondered if he was OK.

Finally, not really wanting to disturb him but wanting to check on him at the same time, I asked him if he was OK.

He raised his head and looked at me and smiled. "Yes, I'm fine. Thank you for asking," he said in a clear strong voice.

"I didn't mean to disturb you, Grandpa, but you were just sitting here staring at your hands and I wanted to make sure you were OK," I explained to him.

"Have you ever looked at your hands," he asked. "I mean really looked at your hands?"

I slowly opened my hands and stared down at them. I turned them over, palms up and then palms down. No, I guess I had never really looked at my hands as I tried to figure out the point he was making. Grandpa smiled and related this story:

"Stop and think for a moment about the hands you have, how they have served you well throughout your years. These hands, though wrinkled, shriveled, and weak have been the tools I have used all my life to reach out and grab and embrace life. They put food in my mouth and clothes on my back.
•As a child my mother taught me to fold them in prayer.

They tied my shoes and pulled on my boots.
•They have been dirty, scraped and raw, swollen and bent.

They were uneasy and clumsy when I tried to hold my newborn son.
•Decorated with my wedding band they showed the world that I was married and loved someone special.

They trembled and shook when I buried my parents and spouse and walked my daughter down the aisle.
•They have covered my face, combed my hair, and washed and cleansed the rest of my body.

They have been sticky and wet, bent and broken, dried and raw.
•And to this day, when not much of anything else of me works real well, these hands hold me up, lay me down, and again continue to fold in prayer.

These hands are the mark of where I've been and the ruggedness of my life.
•But more importantly it will be these hands that God will reach out and take when he leads me home.

And with my hands He will lift me to His side and there I will use these hands to touch the face of Christ."

I will never look at my hands the same again. But I remember God reached out and took my grandpa's hands and led him home.

When my hands are hurt or sore I think of Grandpa. I know he has been stroked and caressed and held by the hands of God.

I, too, want to touch the face of God and feel His hands upon my face.

30 day challenge: day 12

Describe a typical day in your current life.

A typical day in my life varies greatly depending on if it's a weekday or weekend, summer or school time, so I'll just describe my day today.

First I woke up a little later than I wanted to but we all know sometimes sleeping in feels sooooo good.
Got up and got dressed and ate
Watched a little tv with the boys and played on the computer a little bit.
Remembered we had to go to the store to get my nephew a birthday card for his birthday Saturday and my husband some father's day cards so we walked there (about 1 1/2 miles there) :)
After the store I took the boys to the school across the street (both of their old school k-3rd) and let them play on the playground while I took pics with my phone.
Walked home let them play on and video games while I read.
Then listened to them read to me and had them study their spelling words.
Made dinner and here I am back on the computer.
Waiting for David to get home so I can go to the post office to mail out the card since I guess I missed the mailman and it has to get to Tennessee.
Not much really this is one of my nice lazy days. :)

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Nobody Knows

30 day challenge: day 11

Describe  5 pet peeves you have.

1)The flag on the mailbox up if there is no mail in there waiting to be picked up.
2)Cabinet drawers and doors left open.
3)Toilet seat up.
4) Toilet paper over not under.
5)Clothes hanging out the sides of the dirty clothes basket and not pushed down.

Monday, June 11, 2012

30 day challenge: day 10

Describe your most embarrasing moment.

At first I couldn't really think of anything and then I thought that maybe this one would suffice.
The day I gave birth to my youngest son, Isaiah.
For some  reason my husband invited my mil to be there and she without me knowing it invited his older sister. I was in so much pain and concentrating on getting my son out that I didn't say anything.
Stupid mistake since right before he was fully out a flash went off and I realize that she took a picture of him COMING OUT. I wish I could say it was just my imagination but she even admitted she did it.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

30 day challenge: day 9

List  3 people who have influenced you and describe how.

1) My mom-How can I put into words to describe the best person in my life? She struggled very much growing up and then when she got married her struggle continued but she didn't let that get her down.
She trusted God everyday  and although life around her was at times a mess she had a peace that surpasses all understanding. When she was diagnosed with cancer and given 3 months to live she fought hard and trusted God and was able to live 5 years as she said so she could get me raised and out of the house.

2)My sister Mary-She was not biologically my sister but my best friend. I say my sister because friends come and go but a sister stays by your side no matter what and that she did.
She also had some struggles in life but always had a smile on her face. She drew me out of my shyness and at a time when I wouldn't talk to anyone made me talk. I've never been a big hugger but she would hug me anyway and always tell me she loved me.
When we would talk on yahoo IM she would never get off without saying I love you sis and I would have to say it too or she wouldn't get off. People think it's weird that she was 13 years older than me and would want to hang with a "kid" but she didn't care.
She's been gone 4 years next month and I miss her everyday.

3) My oldest son Thomas- When he was 7 the doctor diagnosed him with asthma and said he would never be able to run or play like a normal kid because his asthma was so severe. Although God has healed him he inspires me because in 7th grade he went out for cross country and although some of the kids were mean to him and the coaches too and said they didn't want him on their team he didn't listen to them. He runs 6 days a week rain or shine and runs in 2 5ks a month. He  says he's going to prove everyone wrong and I believe he will.


How does a very introverted parent get blessed with two very extroverted kids?
Kids who never met an enemy unless that person does something mean to them.
Who is willing to play with anyone no matter the age.
How does that same introverted parent find a balance between letting them have friends and teaching them not to share too much too soon?

Why am I so willing and able to teach them to forgive people for hurting them and yet I can't forgive those same people as easily?
When people hurt my babies no matter if that person is an adult or child all I see is red and the mama bear appears.
How do I learn to let go and forgive?
I know the obvious answer is to let go and let God, to ask God to help me forgive them but how do I give it to God and not keep taking it back when I am angry?

Saturday, June 9, 2012

30 day challenge: day 8

What are 5 passions you have?

1) My relationship with God.
2) My family-I love spending my days with them. I've often been told I'm weird because I count down the days until summer vacation so I can be with my babies.
3) Reading- I could spend all day reading especially if the book I'm reading is a Karen Kingsbury book.
4) Taking pictures-I love photography.
5)Making videos of my kids from pictures I have taken of them. I just discovered and taught myself how to do this late last year.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Pray for the bear

They say a mom will do anything for her kids and today I think I proved that saying is indeed true.
This morning my son woke up not feeling well and since he didn't feel well then the bear he slept with last night was sick as well.
So I have spent pretty much all day giving medicine to a sick bear, putting clothes on him so when we go out he won't get cold and sicker, and even feeding it lunch.
The kicker? That would be when I prayed for my son to get better and had to also pray for Flash (the bear). Yes I do love my kids with every fiber of my being.
it's like I told my husband earlier I bet God got a happy laugh out of that prayer request.
Poor baby bear doesn't he look sick?

30 day challenge: day 7

What is your dream job, and why?

My dream job is the one I am doing right now and that's being a sahm.
Growing up I had ideas of jobs I would like to do and even now I think about the few jobs out there I would like to do but my dream job is being able to stay home and take care of my boys. Not having to find a babysitter when they are sick, being able to help them with their homework, being able to go to any activities they do and support them without having to find someone to cover my shift.
Dream job + sahm = My reality now.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Reality vs. society

I wish I were as thin as I was when I thought I was fat.
I don't think truer words were ever spoken from any woman. I think lots of times as teenagers we are so conditioned by society to look at the magazines and celebrities and compare ourselves to what society says we have to look like to be accepted. To be told we are beautiful. As little girls if we have the right parents we are told that we are beautiful, that we are princesses and we can accomplish great things as long as we believe in ourselves and know that no matter how beautful we are on the outside that beauty is only skin deep and we need to be beautiful on the inside as well.
Then we become teenagers and sometimes even the tweenagers and we start looking at 17 magazine and Cosmo and we realize that we are not as beautiful as the models in those magazines because we don't have a size 0 waist or flawless skin so society's voices become louder than our parents and we start applying the makeup sometimes in secret because our parents have told us not to wear it until a certain age, we exercise until we have sweat pouring from places we didn't know existed and sometimes we stop eating or overeat just to throw it up. All so we can finally look like a celebrity who in actuality doesn't look like that either. We teach our daughters that's it ok to compare ourselves to others instead of being the person God made us to be. No we might never say the actual words "it's ok to compare yourself to her or her" but by turning our heads when our 12 year old daughters are wearing the makeup because in their words they are ugly without it or turning our heads and letting them wear the short shorts so they'll be noticed by the boy they like this week we are giving in to the peer pressure we fought so hard against ourselves.
Then if we don't have daughters we teach our sons to go out for any sport they can because girls like jocks and not the artsy type, we teach them to notice the girl with the booty shorts and tight tank tops and yet we know deep down those are not the type of girls we want raising our granddaughters and grandsons.
We as parents need to stand up and take a stand against society once and for all and let them know that we will no longer accept what they are trying to do to our children. That we are the parents and we do not have to accept what we are told for 5 minutes of popularity. Popularity is fleeting and so are girls in their teenage years. So stand up for what you believe in and speak louder than the magazines even if you have to throw the trash out and say not in my home.

30 day challenge: day 6

What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

I have experienced quite a few hard things in my life from my childhood to my husband cheating on me to miscarrying my baby at 10 weeks.
But I think the hardest thing I've ever experienced would have to have been watching my mom die of cancer and knowing because of how my father did us I didn't get enough time with her.
She would hardly ever tell me what was going on with her and would never let on about how bad her cancer really was (I guess she thought I had it hard enough trying to raise my son) that by the time she did tell me it was too late and she was in hospice already dying.
So I guess I would have to say losing my mom was the hardest thing I've ever gone through.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

30 day challenge: day 5

Figured I would go ahead and write this before we go out and celebrate Brother's day. :)

What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

1) Having a relationship with God.
2)David, Thomas, and Isaiah (my husband and boys)
Now onto the not so deep ones. lol
3) a nap
4) Candy I could eat all day and never gain weight.
5) A sunshiney summer day.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

30 day challenge: day 4

List  5 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

This one will be slightly easy
1)Next year when you are 17 your mom is going to be diagnosed with cancer and when you are 21 she will die. It's going to be hard but you will survive.
2) You will have a baby at 19 with a guy who will no longer be in your life. Trust me it's going to be ok and very much for the best.
3)You will meet your husband at work so when people say you need to go to the bars to meet a man just know that God will bring him to you like you said before.
4)Your husband will cheat on you within 3 months of getting married and not see your son for the 3 months he moved out. You will survive and he will be back and you will be strong and your marriage will be strong.
5)When your mom dies she will leave you money don't waste it on people trying to prove to them you are worthy to be loved because by the time the money is gone they will be too.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Heaven waits for me

Pushing kids

Do you ever feel like because of your deep seated fears in life you push your kids to do too much? Maybe push the to the point of excellence when you yourself know that you need to back off?
That's how I feel sometimes. My oldest son runs cross country for his school and has since 7th grade (he's going into 10th this year) and sometimes I feel like maybe I push him too hard to succeed at this sport but then sometimes I think I don't push him hard enough because I know what he is capable of and to be honest sometimes he gets it in his head he can't do it and that quite frankly scares me.
It scares me because he will tell himself that he is not capable of doing it or he will listen to others who have said that and it sounds very much like me in my childhood. Thing is I have never allowed anyone to talk to him that way around me and if anyone did I have removed those people from his life so why does he still listen to "those voices"? Shouldn't the voices of us his parents who have ALWAYS encouraged him, supported him, and rooted for him be louder?
Well I don't know about louder because I know teenagers are very prone to peer pressure but if anyone has any suggestions on how to encourage him and for him to prove to himself he can do it please let me know.

30 day blog challenge: day 3

Describe your relationship with your parents.

This is one of those ones I have been kind of dreading because I am a very private person but if I can't be honest here where can I be honest at? Besides I pretty much think I already answered this yesterday.

Before she died my mom was my best friend and not a day goes by in the last almost 15 years that I don't think about her or wish she was here to pray for me or just give me some of her sound wisdom.
My dad on the other hand has never actually came to care for me (you know how some abusive parents realize what they do when they become grandparents) well my dad has never come to that and we haven't talked in almost 5 1/2 years.
So that's pretty much my relationship with my parents in a nutshell.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

30 day blog challenge: Day 2

Since I wasn't able to write anything yesterday (I do think I passed myself with as busy as we were) I decided that I could make day 2 today. So here it is.
Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1) Rejection-Growing up my father was a very abusive man (both physically and emotionally) so I grew up knowing that I was not wanted by him and being told everyday he wishes I had never been born and if I had to be born I should have been a boy. That lead into the fact that I was very shy in school and therefore not very open to making new friends so if I made a friend and the next day they played with someone else I would automatically assume they hated me. So with that being said I'm still very shy and keep to myself a lot so I won't be rejected.

2) Failure-I think that the failure has to do with the above. Being told that I would never amount to anything.

3) Snakes-The house I grew up in the backyard ran into a creek and snakes would always somehow get into the house through the kitchen. I can remember one time standing next to fridge talking to my sister while she did dishes (I was probably 3-5) and all of a sudden a snake came out and from under the fridge and darted back under.  Scary stuff for such a little girl.

So with all that being said I have a few fears that are not exactly as deep as the first 2 but I figured I would write about ones closer to my heart. Writing is therapeutic after all. Did I spell that right? lol

Friday, June 1, 2012

30 day blog challenge: day 1

After seeing others doing this I thought it might be cool to do it also and "put myself out there" as they say.
 List  10 random facts about yourself.

1) I have naturally curly hair (and I hate it)
2)I do not enjoy video games at all but will play them to make my kids happy.
3)I love watching my husband and kids run.
4) I want to be able to run but I'm afraid to.
5)I'm a control freak when it comes to money.
6) I can't let others pay at the store for reason # 5.
7)I survived childhood abuse.
8)Up until this past year I had no self esteem.
9)I'm a slight perfectionist.
10)I am addicted to Tyler Perry's character Madea.