Have you ever logged onto blogger with the intent to post something positive and uplifting and you decide to not do it because you are tired and will do it the next day?
That's where I was last night. We have had a lot of trouble with my car as of late and it just seemed that one thing or another was being thrown at me and fighting with my husband on top of all of that but I decided I needed to stay positive and it would all work out.
So that's exactly what I did and thanks to some friends at church my car was fixed and I didn't have to take it to a shop, my husband sees my way on buying a second car at this time, school stuff is bought and we only need a couple more things for the boys to be complete, things are looking up and I was feeling great.
UNTIL today that is. I went to bed last night with the intent to post about how God remains faithful and if we trust in him he will provide all our needs. Then I woke this morning and for some strange reason I couldn't shake this black cloud of depression over me.
So now here I sit fighting a black cloud of the devil's depression instead of basking in the glory of God.
This is ridiculous.
All day today I have had teenage attitude and instead of handling it in a fashion that I used to be able to do I have done nothing but get stressed and upset. On top of that I keep thinking about finances when yes they are not the greatest but they are definitely not where they were at this time last year.
So this is my promise to myself that even though I may get down and out sometimes I will not let satan win.
I will trust in God and know that he has been faithful before and he will be faithful again.
I think I will go back to reading the Bible story book to the kids again too. I know in my heart of hearts that part of the problem is that I haven't been reading my Bible like I should so I need to do that too.
If anyone is reading this what book(s) would you recommend for a good Bible study? Something geared towards being a strong woman/wife/mom.